Layoffs

Today I experienced the economy and layoffs for the first time.  My job is safe, for now anyway, but my coworker Scott is not as lucky.  Today, after lunch, I was sitting in the office when he came in and shut the door.  He said he has something to tell us (all of the sales managers are in one office with cubicles) they had just laid him off.  The silence in the office truly made it feel like someone had died.  It was a lot of surprise and apologies, no one knowing quite what to say, after all, does this mean that our jobs are safe since his isn't?  

Scott was really the first major layoff we've had in the hotel.  Now I know that there are these massive companies laying off thousands upon thousands of people but we are a small hotel with only 135 rooms.  Our salaried management staff is not huge and we had really resisted any sort of downsizing.  They had also really been preaching for a long time that their were not going to be any layoffs anytime soon and that we were really going to make it work.  Well as it turns out, we're hurting worse than I think they are letting us know.  I think that I feel the worst about how Scott and I had resorted to joking about layoffs.  He and I had decided not too long ago that if they did end up having to cut someone it was going to be one of us and we would claim things off of each others desks that we wanted when the other one left, the biggest for me being his whole desk itself, so much nicer than mine.  Well in the end I guess I might get the opportunity now to have that desk but I'd rather have Scott there.  

Productivness

So I've decided that it's sad that I just can't relax like I'd like to.  I'm home sick today and all I can think about is what I should be getting done at work.  I've always been the type of person who wakes up in the morning and thinks about the things I need to do during the day and what I need to accomplish.  Today I woke up and took a shower thinking about what I needed to do today and it just wasn't going to happen.  Even though I've been sick I still can't stand that I haven't gotten anything accomplished or been productive today.  I'm hoping that by doing some things on the computer, such as this, I'll feel better.  I guess we'll see.  

PS - Happy Birthday Melina!!